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wanda maximoff ([personal profile] hexing) wrote in [community profile] multiversallogs2011-09-14 09:01 am

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Who: Remy & Wanda.
What: Dealing with some new arrivals.
Where: Their house!
When: After Wanda's conversation with Erik.
Notes: Backdated by a lot.

It would make more sense of her head were spinning. If she were astonished and shaken by the conversation she'd just had. That would be the normal response, Wanda thinks, but she's not normal and nothing about this situation is, either. The only constant is his behavior...and, she knows, something to come home to, after three years of building their ties to one another. She's grateful, as she hurries her way up to the front walk of the little house she and Remy have acquired, aware that it's a luxury she should never take for granted.

(Never again, anyway.)

She pauses, in front of the door. She takes a deep breath. And then, with a steadiness she does genuinely feel--it's not necessarily a good thing, that steadiness of hers, the intent behind her eyes, but she's comfortable with it for right now--she heads inside to see what she's missed.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-09-14 11:05 pm (UTC)(link)
She's allowed to be steady - it makes sense, even if it's not the best thing; they're all jaded.

Gambit is in the living room, pacing, not because he's overly anxious but because as someone filled with bio-kinetic energy, sitting still even when you're slightly on edge or trying to stay sharp is too much of a pain in the ass to be bothered with. (That's his story and he's sticking to it.)

It's a relief to hear the door when he does, and know from the weight of it who it is.

He doesn't say anything, not yet, instead just crosses the room and pulls Wanda into his arms. It doesn't matter to him that she's not a wreck and doesn't need someone to hold her and tell her it's fine; she should have the option. (And maybe he was a little worried. Maybe.)

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-09-30 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
It is completely a mindfuck, and though they've all had their share of them - hell, Remy's had to kill his own alternate - this is something that will ever be just beyond the edges of his innate understanding. Blood loyalty means little to someone abandoned at birth. He tries, though, because it's important to Wanda, and Wanda is important to him. (Remy has always chosen his own family.)

"I think he's got Xavier still," he says quietly. "Somebody who wasn't Chuck was using his CiD to talk to me about mutants. So it's... not a terrible thing he's totally, awkwardly, creepily that age."

He smiles, just a bit.

"... How'd it go?"

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-10-03 12:01 am (UTC)(link)
"What happened to him was monstrous." His voice is subdued with the gravity of it - what happened and still happens to all mutants is horrific, but there's an extra layer there, with this man. Everyone knows what Max Eisenhardt went through, at least in summary. Not even Remy, in all his hostility towards Magneto, would ever brush that aside. "There's no question about that, chere. You're seeing him closer to the origins of his decisions."

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-10-21 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
The thought of Magneto raising children - actually raising them, from babies, not just getting his claws in with angry teenagers - disturbs something fundamental in Remy. He's careful not to let it show on his face.

The lights are dim in the house, and it's nice out so the back door to the garden is open; Remy laces his fingers with hers and moves to sit down in the living room, facing the quiet yard.

"Billy knows something's up, Tommy's bored as ever." He kept them busy and occupied and only did a reasonable amount of nagging. Despite the packaging, he's not half bad at wrangling teens, but Wanda knows that.

It takes him a while to come up with something to say to the second bit.

"That man frightens me." His voice is hushed and he sounds somewhat at a loss - a key to it being honest, if uncomfortably raw (for him). "Ain't got nothin' to do with his abilities or his politics. I have been in the orbit of his presence for so long and I've seen what happens to everyone who gets close to him - everyone. So much of you is your heart, Wanda, I just..."

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-10-22 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm worried that you'll get lost."

It's an important distinction. Not one that excludes hurt, and yes, of course he doesn't want her to be hurt, but Erik's very existence here has to be screwing with her already. But he knows how trying to work with Magneto is like trying to dig a lost stone out of tar - you think you're making progress until you realize you're in too deep to get out.

"I trust you. I don't trust him. I ain't ever gonna, and I'm probably gonna keeping pointing that out."

Checks, balances, and Remy's inability to be subtle once he's trying to really make a point.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-10-24 08:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Remy doesn't realize until that moment that he's actually waiting for her to get defensive, and the suddenness of that clarity unlocks a whole host of emotions. Mostly, though, he just feels immediately guilty, and the look he gives Wanda in response is plainly apologetic. He's not trying to take out his history of dealing with these kinds of situations on her, but it is - unfortunately - how he's conditioned to react. He swallows all of it, because this is very much not about him, and it's not the path he meant to go down.

"No." His voice is quiet. "A bit above my pay grade, chere."

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-10-25 04:28 am (UTC)(link)
That is... a lot.

It speaks to just how invested Remy is that his first reaction is not to feel vindicated, but instead coldly moved at just how hard Wanda must have been pushed to do something that disturbing. He knows that Magneto was among the mutants depowered (and no one was surprised), but the details - he's sure Xavier knows, and her brother. But he'd never even imagined. It makes him hate that man all the much more.

"You should never have been in that position." He hasn't let go of her hand. "None of us... these lives we lead. The toll it takes."

They both know it's unbelievable; unreal. But it's just life.

"I'm sorry."

That she had to do that. That Magneto did it to her to begin with. That Remy's being hard-headed.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-10-28 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
He nods. She's right. A flicker of an expression, wry but appreciative; he doesn't deserve her. Truly. But god, does he love her. (Thinking that lately has felt really right. It's good.)

"So now that we've established I am not as distant from a few things things as I thought," he says on an exhale, quite definitely feeling like an asshole but - well. There's a silver lining to self-recognition, at least.

"What's our plan of action, here?"

Remy returns Wanda's look, steady - really, this time.
Edited 2011-10-28 04:01 (UTC)

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-10-28 09:30 pm (UTC)(link)
At that he smiles, and there's a moment where it's the sort of smile that says he's just going to pick her up and go right now - no. He is absent of any immediate impulses besides the one to be near her. (That's the only rational one, anyway, as the desire to put Erik out a metaphorical airlock and wish away any memory of his appearance is not one he can indulge in.)

"If he knows, he'll get paranoid." And considering this is a man whose only loyalty is his own vision anyway, that would be bad. "I think, given the things that go on in this place, we'll be able to find something to put him to work on pretty quick."

Manipulative, yes. But necessary. The devil's hands are always going to be busy; they just need to be able to see them.
Edited 2011-10-28 21:30 (UTC)

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-10-30 10:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Somewhere, maybe, there's a world out there where Magneto is a great guy. He leads the mutants fighting for peace in that Apocalypse-future they erased, but even there, his methods were not anything less than brutal - merely in a different context. Remy wants to believe that there are infinite possibilities for a person, especially in the face of having once killed his own alternate, but Erik Lehnsherr is not the person they can take that gamble on.

"They've got their mom with 'em." Something Wanda and Pietro didn't have, then. A protector with experience.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-03 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
He smiles, fond in a way he hasn't felt in a long time. "I wasn't." Half-protest, half-assurance. Remy is happy - and determined - to be here for Wanda, and support her. So yes, she's got him. Her luck, however. He raises his hands and brushes her hair back from her face, taking a minute just to look at her - she's so strong, in that easy, quiet way he sometimes associates with Ororo; Wanda carries it like other people breathe.

Wouldn't this be a lovely note to end their evening on?

"I have to tell you something."

(It would have been.)

"I didn't know for a long time - I plain couldn't figure it out." He laughs a little, and the only hint of humor in it is wry and tired. His gaze drops, looking at the coffee table. "And then I was out with Laura. And then I got stuck. And then we were here and I was waitin' for things to settle down and..."

He raises his hands, a sort of helpless, inevitable gesture, then shrugs in defeat, looking back at Wanda. "I'm sorry. Just - before I say anything else. I'm sorry for doing this right now."

But he has to get it out.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-04 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
Their relationship will never be free from road bumps or crazy happenings, their own doing or from external sources; the bright spot about this is that Remy is telling her at all and, what's more, was planning on doing so. (He wanted to tell Rogue about the Marauders, once. He'd tried to get her to touch him for it. Wanda'd had to get it out of his head by accident. Haphazard and broken as he is still, this is progress.)

"Something from Apocalypse is inside me still."

There is no easy or gentle way to say that. No way to cushion it without horror or dread; it's terrible. Flat out.

"When I was a kid," because there's context, and it's unpleasant context - that Wanda knows some of, in part, "Sinister did something to my brain to keep me from accessing the full spectrum of my mutation. Once he told me it was a block. Another time he told me he removed a part of my brain. I've never know for sure what he did. When I was workin' for New Sun, he overloaded me with energy that wasn't really mine, and ultimately, I burned it out of me. Now - Sinister fucked with my head when he was bringin' me back from being the Horseman. I thought he'd removed the block to make sure I had to come back to him, somethin' like that, but I'm older'n wiser, now, an' I had all that experience with New Sun..."

Remy trails off a bit, and runs one hand over his hair, faintly stressed by relating all this - it just feels unnatural, being so open with his business, even if he wants to be. Patterns of behavior over intent; he recognizes it for what it is, at least.

"I can control it. It was shaky at first but I've been doin' fine. I thought it was worse than it was, because this... stuff kept happening. I couldn't explain it, I couldn't remember. I wasn't sure what it was but I didn't want to worry anybody."

(Oh, Remy.)

He's quiet for a bit, sitting forward, elbows on his knees, hands laced, looking for a moment like he'd rather be up and pacing. When he speaks again it seems like a topic jump at first, inexplicable - but it's not.

"The last time I was in Utopia on my own - right as Summers was kickin' my ass out - the lot of 'em found out Illyana had been sent back to Limbo in a freak accident defendin' that girl Hope. Cyclops wouldn't let nobody go after her. He forbade it, 'cross the board. Everybody of any strategic value had to stay, he said. She weren't no priority, no matter how much Pete yelled."

Remy's voice is quiet; there's something under it, like bitterness, or maybe just the inevitable sort of exhaustion that comes from dealing with Scott Summers and the paramilitary bleakness of what the X-Men have become. Even Xavier these days... they've all given up. Rolled over for the new dawn of Frost and Summers, Leaders of Utopia.

"Finally he let Sam Guthrie - Cannonball - take a team and go, but he had to pick from people who weren't required on the front lines. Which meant folks who he thought were expendable, or the students. Kids, Wanda. Kids and people who have no business goin' to hell - and he was forcing them into Limbo, or sacrifice Magik.

Cannonball, Dazzler, an' Northstar, with Trance, Pixie, and Anole. I went. Kids, a speedster - Alison's an entertainer, not a soldier, and Guthrie's got no business leadin' nobody nowhere. He's a good kid but he's not hard enough for that. I knew it was gonna be a disaster. I could leave Utopia and I could leave Rogue but I knew I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I'd walked out knowin' they were heading off to Limbo like that."
Edited 2011-11-04 02:59 (UTC)

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-04 02:56 am (UTC)(link)


He's still mad about it, in a lot of ways. It would have been no problem to send Betsy and Colossus and be done with the thing in an hour. Fucker.

"...I remember gettin' there. And starting to look. Demons, hundreds of 'em, started crawlin' up outta the ground. They'd been waiting. And I remember Ali just - screaming, gettin' dragged under."

Remy's looking down again, at his hands, gaze distant.

"Twice before I've blacked out an' not known why. This time I remembered. Limbo is hell alive, a whole world made up of every nightmare, every dark force. It reached into me and yanked out Death in a heartbeat. I could see and hear everything that happened, like a dream. I couldn't control a damn thing. I had to watch as I broke down Alison and Jean-Paul, corrupted them into - I don't even know, minions. He had my voice and my face but it was somethin' else, with my hands. I woulda killed all of them, I -" He laughs, sharp and unpleasant. "- Got rid of every one of those damn demons, ended up freein' Illyana in the process, but then? Beat Sam within an inch of his life. Pixie n' Magik had to jam both their soulswords into me to get me to stop. An' even then..."

He shakes his head, shoulders hunched over. The memories disturb him more than anything has in a long, long time. "I still had to drag it outta my own head. They all think it was Limbo doin' it to the three of us an' nobody came after me and even asked, but I know what it was, it was Death. Apocalypse's Death. It's still in me."

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-06 11:56 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes he wonders - were they ever heroes, any of them? They tried to band together, to create an institution within society for mutants behaving with integrity and agency. To own their identities, and to make stand; they never asked it of all mutants, and never tried to speak for them all, either, but strove to protect and defend all the same.

It seems so different now.

He's surprised when Wanda touches him, even more when she says she's sorry - why, it's his fault, these are choices he's made - but then he's not, a heartbeat after. He turns against her and pulls her into his arms, practically into his lap, holding her like it grounds him (maybe it does).

"If anything happens to me, if it gets out of my head-" quiet, but very serious- "You have to drop my ass in Bonetown and keep me there. I can't risk putting you or the boys in danger, especially with Magneto around. I don't think anything here is on the level of Limbo as far as triggers go but I don't want to not have a plan if something does happen."

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-07 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
Bonetown is frightening, but it's useful in a poignant way - the both of them, for a whole host of reasons, know how mutant abilities can hurt. (Society, the bearer, anyone.) It's a convenient niche that's more humane than the grotesque torture devices that the inhibitor collars are, and worlds better than violence.

Remy looks up at her, taking in the gravity of her words and the sheer capability she holds in her hands. There was a time when he wouldn't say something like you have to stop me, he'd have asked her to just kill him - but he doesn't want that, now. There's no lingering death wish buried in his heart. He's not sure when it changed.

"You know I love you, right?" Whispered.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-07 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
He leans back a bit, hands sliding up from her waist to her shoulders, holding her so that he has to look up to see her, and smiles - apologetic and affectionate at once.

"You deserve better than my shit, Wanda." It's less self-deprecating than usual; he's got a point, though. "I promise you that I will be here through this, for the boys, for you, for us. Nothing's more important than that to me."

Not his fears or his issues or his hang-ups. It's taken a long time for Remy to really come around to understanding how selfish keeping things hidden is, really, even though he was never malicious about it - he does all these stupid things sideways, but in his heart, this is what's important. Wanda being in Erik's line of fire terrifies him a thousand times more than his own demons do.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-07 06:30 am (UTC)(link)
Remy is still the same man he's always been, it's just that with Wanda, he's able to behave how he's actually inclined to, instead of reverting into a mass of reactionary nerves and angry defensive behavior. There's that saying: true love doesn't complete you or change you, you're just a better person with them. When the hell did this happen?

"I meant it when I said I'm in it for keeps, chere. All these worlds, you and me."

Against all odds, they've figure it out.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-07 07:47 am (UTC)(link)
"Sure thing." Murmured against her - Remy kisses her again, grateful and like a promise. (Of... many things, look, he's not a chaste preteen.) He sits back up enough and shifts his hold on her as if he's about to pick her up - maybe he is! "What do you feel like?"

Drinks, he means.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-07 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
On his lap she remains, in that case - even as he stands up, yes, lifting her easily with one arm under her knees and the other staying at her back. "See I'd dare you, but then one of the boys'd walk right in, no?" The trials and tribulations of parenthood, his good-natured smirk seems to say. ('Upstairs, then', also.)

"I believe we got beer, some cheap market wine, two leftover wine coolers an' the bottle of god-only-knows whiskey I got bribed with last week."

When he settles her on the kitchen counter he stays close, one hand on either side of her hips against the edge of the tile.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-07 01:04 pm (UTC)(link)
"S'good idea." Indeed, the nearest wine bottle is stuck in the top shelf of a cabinet over there, notably out of immediate reach... and Remy declines to make a grab for it, anyway, instead leaning into Wanda's hands and flashing a bit of a smile before he kisses her.

At least they are in the kitchen and not on the sofa if anyone busts in, right? Right?

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-08 08:39 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, he did.

(Well.)

He's got his hands on her hips now, holding her close (as if she's going to bolt away, sitting on the counter), and if she thinks he's got any objections to her particular methods of distracting him then she's just not paying very close attention. Remy glances cabinet-ward, turning his head a bit as if considering, and then turns back, brushing his nose against hers.

"This is pretty cool, isn't it?"

Sneaking around in their little house, dodging sleeping (maybe) children upstairs. So what, super villain in-laws and promises to disable one another in disaster have interrupted. That's life.

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-08 09:14 am (UTC)(link)
He loves that sound, and he grins, swaying against her playfully and nearly-kissing her lips - it might be teasing, but then he says:

"I think there might be somethin' about us and most places, chere, but if you can stick a do-not-disturb-bubble over this kitchen I ain't gonna complain-"

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-08 10:16 am (UTC)(link)
Jeez, Wanda, it's like you aren't trying to deter him at all.

He nearly cracks up after she bites him, and he ends up laughing against her shoulder, muffled. "You know," he says, and takes the opportunity of his proximity to investigate her neck, jaw, her ear- "So might creepin' up the stairs, which you think feels most lucky?"

[identity profile] bangyoudead.livejournal.com 2011-11-08 11:40 am (UTC)(link)
He grins, and pulls her into his arms again, purposeful.

"Yes ma'am."