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multiversallogs2012-02-25 07:10 pm
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You've got your reasons
Who: Steph & Kate
What: Confrontations! Sort of.
Where: Steph's place
When: After Kate's talk with Jason
Notes: At some point I'll go a day without posting something and you'll all think I've been kidnapped
Warnings: Talk about death/violence, possibly talk about PTSD, discussions of rape and attempted rape
Steph had been expecting the call from Kate ever since the night they went against the militia and Henry Jennings was killed. It had been obvious, as soon as Steph had said yes against Kate's no, that Kate wasn't pleased. Steph wouldn't be either, if she was against killing the way her friends were, but she's not and she couldn't let Henry Jennings potentially walk away. Helena's vote hadn't surprised her, and neither did Jason's, now that she knows who he is.
It makes her feel responsible, in a way, if she'd said no they would've been divided equally, but she knows that Jason would have done it anyway, regardless of what the rest of them said. At the end of the day, this hasn't bothered her nearly as much as actually killing the other militia agent had. Still. She knows that Kate is upset at her, or maybe she doesn't trust her anymore. Steph has tried to give her space, to let Kate come to her even though it had upset her to have to stay away from Kate, not knowing if things would be okay again.
It means she replies almost instantly to the message, telling Kate to come over whenever she wants. And then she just has to wait.
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"I could just say 'do you want me to want you to be jealous?' and then we'll get stuck in a never ending loop of avoiding answering," Chess is definitely an apt analogy, although they're being a little more childish than chess usually is.
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Kate takes it a step up and not only sticks her tongue back out, she blows a raspberry while she's at it. "And if you would just answer, we can avoid that loop."
Somehow it's easy to be childish, or rather, act her age around Steph. Sometimes Kate can seem so serious.
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Normally Steph is all for honesty and bluntness, but the problem here is that she isn't sure of her answer. She hasn't had time to sit down and work out exactly how she feels about Kate, or even how she feels about other girls. She wonders if things might've been different, if Cass had stayed in Gotham, but thinking about that doesn't actually help. Instead she's stuck in a strange city with a girl she's known for barely two months and they're about to start a war against a police state. Steph feels like there are more appropriate times to have a sexuality crisis.
"What if I don't know?" She comes back to telling the truth, when she doesn't know what else to say.
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"Then you don't know, I guess," she answers with a shrug, not quite sure if she's disappointed or relieved Steph didn't give her a straight answer. Looking at Steph has suddenly become hard to do; maybe there's a little embarrassment in Kate's face that she doesn't want Steph to notice. Besides, what does she have to offer Steph even if she did like her in that way? Steph is a lot more experienced than her and while it's easy for people to say that Kate has time until she's ready, even Kate knows that sometimes, that's not exactly true.
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But she doesn't know what to say to dissipate the awkwardness that seems to inflitrate the room, so she decides to stick with humour and maybe a little bit of self-deprecation, "Life was easier when relationships lasted one night and were with the first boy at the party to say I looked good."
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"That's not a relationship. That's a booty call." As if Kate would know exactly how that goes. But she's snickering anyway, sipping at the rest of the coffee.
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She makes a face at Kate drinking the coffee, "Isn't that cold by now? I can make you a new one if you want." Cold coffee is awful, and Steph feels bad that Kate is drinking it.
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"I just needed something to do with my hands," she admits with a sheepishlook crossing her face. "I knew it would end up being awkward somewhere along the line."
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Steph has the best stories. She's also really bad at telling what things are appropriate to make jokes out of.
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One ill-made joke for another?
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"Baedal stole my recent chance to beat the crap outta him, which is pretty disappointing," Mostly because there had been a lot of questions Steph had wanted to ask; things that had come up since he had faked his death. Apparently that sort of thing runs in the family.
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Kate smiles flatly, absentmindedly reaching up to her shoulder to twirl her hair where it used to lay. She's still getting used to the new length. "Maybe you'll get the luck of him showing up." Whether that's good or bad luck is left up to Steph to decide.
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Things are easier this way, this false way of not taking responsibility for what you suggest.
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"I don't think I could," She wanted to, once, back when all she could feel for her dad was anger. Now she just pities him, and she couldn't bring herself to kill someone she pities. And he's not like the militia agents here; jail can hold her dad.
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Morals, when it comes to friends, are flexible and tones of grey.
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"When I thought he was dead, it was such a relief," not at first, because at first she'd been so angry and confused, but the relief eventually settled in, "I wish he really had been dead. Or I wish he'd never come back to Gotham."
She wishes he hadn't come back to her city and killed people just to get her attention.