"I think that's just how things happen. Generally." ...changing abruptly in a short space of time; aside from Ivan, it's a fair point that most of Ilde's life has been that way the past year. She's only had a life of her own to speak of, as she sees it, for this past year. She feels as if she's been running quickly along unsteady, uneven ground and the momentary slowness isn't familiar and doesn't fit. Isn't something that she knows precisely what to do with when it's been so much easier to keep going. You can't fall down if you don't stop.