The dressing gets discarded on the floor in front of the tub and she only wobbles slightly when she rises up on her toes and steps in, sinking down and -- all the way down, closing her eyes under the water for an unpleasantly long moment that'd be a hell of a lot more worrying if she were physically capable of drowning.

Sometimes she pretends; imagines that the water closes over her head and she doesn't have to open her eyes again.