multiversallogs | bitterness without a name

Who: ILDE and RODOLPHUS
What: a gift!
Where: a coffee house that is not Queequeg's
When: afternoon... sometime...
Notes: if I say "girl you in danger" that's actually directed at Rodolphus
Warnings: inappropriate poetry

It is still a fine enough day that sitting outside to drink coffee is pleasant, and so Rodolphus has arranged, somewhat abruptly, to meet with Ilde, whom he still thinks of as 'the girl from the fog trip'. Sometimes, as now, 'who gave me the brooch' is appended to that.

There is something about the virtually motionless, straight-backed way he sits that simply does not look comfortable, yet one may get the impression he could easily maintain the position for hours. His manner of dress rarely varies, which was convenient in the event of Dean's funeral; it's still tailored charcoal grays and blacks, though of course, he forwent the brooch at that time. It is on right now, naturally, the same way one wears the sweater their aunt sent them when meeting that aunt. But he genuinely likes the brooch, at least as much as he likes anything, which is why there is a book lying next to his cup of expresso. It is a little worn and not, on first glance, much to look at, but there is still a trace of gilt on the leather cover, and the pages are very well preserved. The illustrations inside are black and white, a little grim, a little bold, definitely strange.

A younger man might fidget, check the time, look around, or inspect his prospective gift. Rodolphus stares off in the distance, perhaps thinking, perhaps not. He is aware of his surroundings, but they are relatively unimportant.

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While (FOR A CHANGE???) there's no real reaction visible as he reads the poem she's written for him, it does prod that same sense of intrigue/unease, the idea that maybe this isn't exactly or has the potential to change from the strange but harmless social diversion he's envisioned to... something else?... surfacing briefly and then sinking back down to the murky depths, like one of those frogs that are too big but you don't think about them until someone else brings them up. On the topmost level, however, all he thinks is: I didn't expect that. The next level down comes unbidden the thought: There's probably a lot more I don't expect. He has vast experience in obfuscating his own thought processes, however, and does it now in the interest of there not being too gigantic an awkward pause.

"Hellsing is very busy, but I would enjoy talking about poetry. Though I have not had opportunity to do much of that before, and am not widely read."

Few things in Ilde's life are properly harmless (because apocalypse, because Baedal, and because she's built for bad decisions and has a problem with impulse control), but the way she reasons here is thus: Rodolphus is married and she has an apparently possessive vampire boyfriend, ergo nothing will happen, ergo she can just talk about poetry she likes and it won't be weird, even though she tends to like poetry like that and whiled away some of her hours on the first fogtrip looking at his ass. It doesn't occur to her to share any of this helpful dissection of their interaction, partly because it never does and partly because the sparse conversations she has with him tend to be pared down to the necessary and it just doesn't feel needful.

"I write down the things I remember," she shrugs, because it's relevant. "Poetry- segments of stories. Sheet music." The prose gets inadvertently paraphrased more often than she realizes, but she memorised enough poetry in her teens that that tends to be more consistently accurate, and she's physically incapable of screwing up the music. "Dorothy Parker is good for that; she wrote a lot of short, sharp poems that stick in your mind."

That he does not appear to recognize the name is more a consequence of time than prejudice; Rodolphus is familiar with the works of some non-magical writers, provided they are from earlier eras, before the split in society was so enforced and important, hence Rossetti. But the closer to present day (his present day, anyway) a non-magical writer is, the less appropriate it is for him to have knowledge of it, which of course does not completely preclude him knowing, but he is still, in many ways, a close-minded old fool.

This is Baedal, however.

"Perhaps, if you have the time, you could record some for me," he says, that typical lack of inflection somewhat flattening out the possible subtext. Probably he means Dorothy Parker, but actually he'd be okay with anything else too.

"I can find time for words." She likes letter-writing, too; poetry evokes ideas, she thinks, but letters are intended to evoke the writer's own self through what they think to say and what they don't realize they're saying, tucked into neat envelopes and given away like parts of a heart. She used to sit and practise her penmanship for a style of communication that's been going out of style for years, and there's something similarly appealing about the notion of transcribing the words of others she's loved so much for someone else's appreciation.

(She wonders only fleetingly what her choices will say about her.)

After a beat, "I write it, as well- I like them. Words." She also tends to be irritatingly pedantic about the meanings thereof, which isn't as unrelated to this as it might immediately seem.

The pause for consideration does this time consciously address the appropriateness or lack thereof involving inviting Ilde to share her own writing with him, but Rodolphus sticks firmly to the conclusion he's already come to in regards to that sort of thing.

"I would be interested in whatever writing you have to share." The sheer stubborn neutrality of it is almost comical, and is punctuated by another sip of expresso. And in the interest of polite sharing, he adds, "I used to keep journals."

As if he still doesn't. But he ain't sharing that.

In lieu of the opportunity to actually read them, Ilde briefly and vividly imagines what the content of Rodolphus's journals might look like. A lot of words packed in close together; she wonders how he describes things to himself in private. What kind of language he speaks when no one is listening. These are the sort of things that interest her about other people, but they're not the sort of things she ever asks questions about. She just wonders, and watches for any opportunity to see.

"I wonder what makes people write things down." She considers her tea for a moment, then adds, "Besides being told to do it."

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