The investment in one's own being right is something Ilde is familiar with - she doesn't carry it as confidently or as expertly, yet, but it's so good to have goals and there are worse ones than striving to stay a step ahead. It requires a lot of examination of the world, a willingness to be always asking questions in one way or another (if not the traditional one--), and the ability to find almost anyone fascinating for at least a little while makes it very hard to get bored.
Prejudice and expectation trip her up more than she'd like (because it feels like a vulnerability, a tell where she doesn't want there to be one, this is what hurt me and now you can see where I'm damaged), but then there's a lot of growing she has still to do, emotionally even if she's never going to be taller than 5'3" in barefeet.
"People are always getting angry about something," she says, reflectively, sliding her thumb along the handle of her knife like she's thinking about something-- else that can be done in response to irritating people, or maybe just to keep her hands busy while she isn't smoking. Hard to say. "You'd think they'd at least have the decency to be more entertaining about it more often."
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Prejudice and expectation trip her up more than she'd like (because it feels like a vulnerability, a tell where she doesn't want there to be one, this is what hurt me and now you can see where I'm damaged), but then there's a lot of growing she has still to do, emotionally even if she's never going to be taller than 5'3" in barefeet.
"People are always getting angry about something," she says, reflectively, sliding her thumb along the handle of her knife like she's thinking about something-- else that can be done in response to irritating people, or maybe just to keep her hands busy while she isn't smoking. Hard to say. "You'd think they'd at least have the decency to be more entertaining about it more often."