It's disingenuous to call Penelope a friend; Severus isn't sure if he'd have felt anything strongly at all if she's been killed, and he tends to use his projected potential reaction as a barometer for that sort of thing. Perhaps he just wants to feel something. Or perhaps he's glad of her assault, that her suffering has given him something to do and someone to share cigarettes with.
Sometimes he wonders if he has anything left of his soul. Most of the time (like now), he contents himself with being able to wonder at all, and lets it go.
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It's disingenuous to call Penelope a friend; Severus isn't sure if he'd have felt anything strongly at all if she's been killed, and he tends to use his projected potential reaction as a barometer for that sort of thing. Perhaps he just wants to feel something. Or perhaps he's glad of her assault, that her suffering has given him something to do and someone to share cigarettes with.
Sometimes he wonders if he has anything left of his soul. Most of the time (like now), he contents himself with being able to wonder at all, and lets it go.