Ilde had had no expectation, and in retrospect doesn't see any reason why she should have - but here they are, either way, and at least as far as the two of them go, it isn't so bad, she thinks. It could be better, but it isn't bad. (In her opinion, which is not necessarily the commonly held one on this subject. It isn't anyone else's business, she thinks, unless that person is Sonja.)

“Sometimes I can't tell if you mind it.” Probably it would be easier, without her; she's nothing can be called convenient.