She'd thought, early in her time here, that it's easier to adjust to Baedal when she'd already been trying to adjust to 'not being in captivity any more'. Instead of being taken from something- well, that had already happened, years ago, and Baedal is the new normal. She hadn't really imagined, though, exactly what it'd be like now that she is settling. Now that this is her life and feels that way.

She feels alien to herself; she'd clutched at community and now that it feels like she has it, it's...something off. Maybe it's just that there's something wrong with her. That wouldn't be a first.

“You fuss,” she says, because that's easier than getting into how strangely she feels lately.