It's not good enough, he knows that instinctively; Ilde doesn't care about herself (why?), she wants - that other woman, Sonja, her war, their everything -

"What happened to your army?" Fuck, cough it up. The very sound of Hilmi's voice makes Jae want to - want to -

Something like step on his throat flashes through his mind and he recoils inside, just a little, but it's still not enough to stop him. Not yet. Jae wants this out of him, even though talking about the apocalyptic world he's probably dead in fills him with such terror like he's never known - but of there's nothing in Hilmi that would ever want to say it, then he's just not going to, no matter how hard Jae magically twists his arm.