"Not if he has any self-preservation instinct," she says, savagely; she's going to try and contact Severus, soon, and then she doesn't know what. This isn't something that it's ever been on her to try to navigate, Hilmi isn't her responsibility and she's deliberately made sure to keep a distance from this aspect of him, and it's a sick and angry feeling that she has to because he won't. Sonja isn't here, and so Ilde has to try, and she just wants to be ill.

The way he looked at her, the way he said her name; he knew. He knows. It's another unpleasant awareness that she doesn't know what to do with.